Sunlight pouring across your skin, your shadow
flat on the wall.
The dawn was breaking the bones of your heart like twigs.
You had not expected this,
the bedroom gone white, the astronomical light
pummeling you in a stream of fists.
You raised your hand to your face as if
to hide it, the pink fingers gone gold as the light
streamed straight to the bone,
as if you were the small room closed in glass
with every speck of dust illuminated.
The light is no mystery
the mystery is that there is soemthing to keep the light
from passing through.
how much longer must i remain
in this frozen hell
my body and mind have frozen all over
ice cages me indefinitely
this world is so cold
i do not wish to remain in it
but Her wrathful power scares me into submission
and Her sweet lullabies lull me to sleep
i no longer know who i am
my entired existence depends on her
i have sacrificed my identity
so that i could become one of hers
a foolish decision
i now no longer exist
but this is what i wanted
to waste away in a world where nobody would miss me
wouldn't it be nice
to be able to disappear in a moment's glance
and nobody would blink, nobody would mourn
and you could shift in and out of existence at will
unfortunately, such a blessing does not exist
and i am stuck with my feet on the ground
my wings clipped behind my back
doomed to the earth, doomed as a human